I am currently staying at my parents’ house. With no job and no idea where I am headed to next, I thought it best to have a break from it all.
But something seemed off yesterday. I felt a surge of emotions and negative thoughts welling up in my heart and mind and simultaneously a desire to just be alone with the Lord and read His word.
I was not at peace. And so I decided to go out, walked for a bit until I found a quiet cafe.
Reading through the verses and the footnotes in my study Bible, I began to feel sick and discouraged by the sudden noise around me (two waitresses were yelling at each other).
Yet in all that God was unstoppable. I was reminded by the devil’s schemes in the book Screwtape Letters. He steals your peace, puts distractions here and there and makes you focus on them.
Distraction is just one letter shy from destruction and if we aren’t careful, distractions like self-pity, anger, the little things that annoy us will keep us from having a Spirit-filled life.
So what did I learn from my unexpected quiet time yesterday?
It is said in the book of Hebrews that I am released from the oppression of sin through the blood of Jesus Christ.
That was what I was feeling at home with all those hateful thoughts taunting me to stir a fight–oppression.
Little by little, with love and gentleness, God has also been giving me nuggets of wisdom to address my struggle with finding the perfect job.
…how much more will the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered himself without blemish to God, purify our conscience from dead works to serve the living God. Hebrews 9:14
Salvation brings people into God’s service. And what service that might be?
Hebrews 12:28-29 says
Therefore let us be grateful for receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, and thus let us offer to God acceptable worship, with reverence and awe, for our God is a consuming fire.
This service is in the form of worship–acceptable worship that pleases the Lord.
They are as follows (as mentioned in Hebrews 13):
- Let brotherly love continue
- Do not neglect to show hospitality to strangers
- Remember those who are in prison and mistreated
- Let marriage be held in honor among all and let the marriage bed be undefiled
- Keep your life free from the love of money
- Be content with what you have
- Do not neglect to do good and to share what you have
And the list goes on.
This time that the Lord allowed me to have reminded me that knowing and focusing on who God is is the most important of all.
Relearning that God is a consuming fire (Hebrews 12:29, Deut.4:24), that Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever (Hebrews 13:8), that we have been given a kingdom that cannot be shaken (Hebrews 12:28)–all these blew me away. Knowing God this way just fills me with awe. It recharges and fuels me so I can enjoy His presence and live to fight another day.
Through Jesus Christ then let us us continually offer up a sacrifice of praise to God, that is the fruit of lips that acknowledge his name. (Hebrews 13:15)
I went back home Spirit-filled and my parents and I had a great family time.
All glory and praise to my Father in heaven.